Success or Fail?

This week was actually really good. I didn’t meet the goals I set…, which is horrible since I go back to college next Sunday. But I did get some writing done. I did do a little bit of reading, but not nearly as much as I should have done. After I’m done writing this, I am going to do some more editing and study some Chinese.

I found this really cool app/website called Coursera. It has a bunch of online courses available to take whenever. There are a ton of categories to choose from, and you can pay for the class or audit it. There is also some financial aid for those who can’t pay for the class.  While auditing is a great option for those who can’t pay, it does mean that there is some course work that can’t be accessed, but I still think it’s really cool. For me, someone who is super busy during the school year (and holds up a facade of business during the summer), the best part is the fact that it’s online. I can take the classes at my own pace, and learn on my time. Since I was homeschooled, I love this type of class/learning setting. It’s very comfortable to me.

It’s crazy that I’m down to my last week of summer before I go back to school, but I think I’m ready. I still feel there are some things that God is teaching me, but I know when the time comes, God will have completed the work He started in me at the beginning of the summer. One of those things, that will probably go with me into the semester, is I want to learn what it means to love God with all my heart, with all my soul, and with all my strength.

I want to be able to love God to the fullest. More and more I am learning that it means not focusing on me but on God. It’s hard, but just in the few days that I’ve been quoting Deuteronomy and praying about it, I’ve learned a lot. It’s hard to pray that, then go do something and remind yourself that it’s not for you. Everything should be done all for the glory of God.

I’m loving it though. It’s amazing just how much more joy and love pours out of us for other people as we focus on God. The more of us we give up, the more of us He fills up. I would much rather be filled with God than with myself. I’m flawed and mess things up so many times, but He is perfect. In my weakness He is made strong, and that’s all I want.

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.  – 2 Corinthians 12:9

If I had to sum up my summer with God (even though I still have a week left) I would use the word trust. All summer God has taught me how much I need to trust in and rely on Him. I can’t do anything without Him, and He is still teaching me that. We’ll see what I have to say about all of this next Saturday. Haha.

Well, like I said, I plan on doing some editing and studying tonight.

再见!加油!Fighting! Good luck! Good bye!

 

**All in all, I think this week was a success.

 

Finally. I’m doing stuff.

Be proud of me. I’m making progress. I got a new book called the princess saves herself in this one by Amanda Lovelace. (There are no capitals in the title or in the book.) It is a book of poetry, and I’m in love with it. I know I’m reading like a million other books too, but I’ll finish this one quickly.

I did start studying Chinese and Spanish. Now that I have my new phone I downloaded a bunch of language apps. Most of them will help me with listening and reading. With them I can get a lot of memorizing done. They won’t necessarily help me with speaking. Therefore, I’m still looking for some tricks to help me with that.

Today was the beginning of me getting up at five in the morning and going to the gym with Uncle. I ran on the treadmill for twenty-two minutes, than did a whole body workout. I went to the gym again with Little Sister around eight-thirty/nine o’clock. We did the bike for twenty minutes, then I coached her on leg day, and did a few other exercises myself. Tomorrow is day 2. The hardest part is going to be staying awake all day or only taking a nap for an hour. Today, I accidentally slept until two in the afternoon.

As for T.V. I dedicated four days to “Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo.” It ended. I almost cried. Now I’ve been inspired. Next time you see me I’m going to be a professional weightlifter. Hehe. Not really, but I will work harder at the gym. Now my sister and I are watching “Bride of the Water God.” The show stars Nam Joo Hyuk. He’s one of my favorite actors and is in everything: Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo, Scarlet Heart, Cheese in the Trap. I love him. A new episode of the show comes out every Monday and Tuesday on DramaFever.

Alright. I love you! Now I have actual journaling to do before I go to bed. That and a devotion. Sleep is, unfortunately, real and I need it before I kick butt at the gym tomorrow. 么么哒!加油!再见!

Let’s just say life doesn’t exist.

“Elizabeth. What the heck? You’re horrible at updating. What’s going on?”

Absolutely nothing is going on. That’s what. My life is one of the most boring thing ever. That and I’m lazy, and I really hate coming up with titles for these things.

You want to know what’s going on in my life?

I’m binge watching “Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo.” I got an iPhone 7 today. I downloaded so many language apps and (unashamedly) all the games I’ve been dying to play. I’m dealing with stupid emotions. I got a new dress which I’m in love with. Aaaand yeah. That’s literally all that’s happened since firework season ended.

BOOOORING.

However, tomorrow I get a new book. It’s my super belated birthday gift.

“Elizabeth, did you finish “Whispers of the Fallen” yet?”

…….nooooooo….. BUT this is a book of poems so it’s okay. I’ve been dying to get this book. I’m hoping it’s still on the shelves in Barns N Noble. I can’t remember what it’s called, but I’ll recognize it when I see it. I’ll show it to you all tomorrow.

MMmmm, yeah. That’s all I have to say. See nothing.

Next week, be prepared for me to be speaking fluently in Spanish and Chinese.

“Fluently?”

Well, maybe not fluently, but I’ll certainly have words memorized. Hehe.

Speaking of languages, the other day I rewatched the first episode of “My Amazing Boyfriend” without subtitles. (It’s a Chinese Drama.) I didn’t understand half the words they were saying, but I did pick up on some words. I’ll continue watching it without subtitles. Now I need to find a Spanish drama to watch. There are a few on Netflix I can choose from. Any suggestions?

Okay. That’s it. Bye bye! 再见!

Just. Freaking. Everything.

I AM DONE SELLING FIREWORKS.

First off, let’s celebrate that statement. While I really didn’t want to work there, God taught me a lot. He came through and proved just how faithful He really is if I only trust Him. There were so many things that happened that could not be denied as God. To add to it, last night I read Psalm 37:18-19

The Lord knoweth the days of the upright: and their inheritance shall be for ever. They shall not be ashamed in the evil time: and in the days of famine they shall be satisfied. [KJV]

This verse was comforting for me to read. With how my future is falling into place and the direction my family is going (NOT a bad direction), it’s nice to know that God will provide and be with me–with us–through everything.

There are three specific things that happened at the stand that I believe are worth documenting.

      1. I saw a car painted like a lady bug! (My nickname is BethyBug, and growing up my family always got me ladybug stuffed animals; now I’m obsessed with them.)
      2. One night, I was just there under the canopy when this truck drove by. It was late, and we were getting ready to close up, mom and I. The parking lot was nearly empty, but this truck drove by. I waved, and he waved back. THEN A CAT POPPED UP IN THE BACK WINDOW. I pointed and started screaming, and almost cried. Then he stopped the car. He got out, and brought a different cat, and she had pink nail cases on, and she was on a red leash, and her name was Cleopatra, and she was blind. AND I GOT TO HOLD HER FOR LIKE FIFTEEN MINUTES. I was so close to crying. It was beautiful. And I freaking love cats. And if you ever get me one, I will love you, and we will be best friends forever.
      3. This is the best thing out of everything that happened. I was checking this guy out and I asked, “How’s it going?” He said, “I’m fine.” Now, I thought about saying, Just fine? but I was like, nah, I don’t know him, no need to butt into his personal. So instead I asked, “How’s your fourth of July going?” (Because this was on the fourth.) He said, “It’s just like any other day.” He was so monotone, and I was like dang, I need to pray for him. As I was bagging his stuff I said, “I don’t mean to pry into your personal life, but is there anything I can pray for you about?” There was silence for maybe twenty seconds, then he said, “No, but you can pray for me right now.” So he grabbed my hand, and I prayed for him. The presence of the Holy Spirit fell in that moment, that he was shaking, I was shaking, and I was about to cry, and it seemed like he was about to cry. As I was praying I said, “Father let there be a reminder that all things work together for the good of those that love you, let there be a reminder that those who delight themselves in you, you give them the desires of their heart, and let there be a reminder that you have a good future planned for us.” I said all of that, and my thought was, Oh my gosh. Where am I going with this? He probably isn’t even a Christian. Good job. Finally I ended, “Amen.” THEN HE PRAYED FOR ME. I was like, Whoa. This is really happening. Then it got better. He started praying in tongues. It was such a beautiful moment. Then he said, “Amen,” gathered his things, and went to his car.

     

So those are the amazing things that happened.

I’ve been talking to mom about so many things too. It’s been really nice just mom and I hanging out. Kind of strengthening our relationship in a way before I leave for college again. One of the things I keep thinking about along the lines of going back to college is how unprepared and how not ready I am. However, I know God isn’t done working with me this summer. There are so many things he has planned. I’ve only begun to scratch the surface.

The great things about what I told you about above, is that I had specific goals set everyday, and everyday I saw a rainbow reminding me of God’s promises. At one point, I specifically prayed that working at the firework stand wouldn’t be dull, and wouldn’t be just a job, but that it would be a ministry. He was faithful, and all he asked me to do was trust him.

As far as anything else goes, here’s the update. The rest of this week and next week, I am going to finish my last freelance project. I’ll only freelance again if I feel I need a little extra income or if I want to. After that I’ll be working on my personal project.

With Chinese, I am going to buckle down and get to memorizing words, sentences, phrases, and start speaking it more. My future boss man recommended I take an hour every day to speak only Chinese.  I want to be fabulous when I go back to college.

Health wise, things are about to get heavy. I’m going to go to the gym in the mornings with Uncle around 5:15, then again at night with Little Sister. So with Uncle, I will focus mainly on strength training. I’ll do a little cardio, a lot of weight lifting. Then when I go with Little Sister, we’ll spend about twenty minutes to a half hour doing cardio and a little time to weight lifting. When it comes to eating, I’m going to start eating more vegetables and no gluten. (Like I’m supposed to anyway.) These past two weeks I have been eating so much junk, I’m ready to cleanse my body.

Okay. 好。再见。加油!Love you! Fighting!

Q&A because it’s easy.

“Dude. Have you read your blog posts? The Grammar sucks.” Unfortunately, I know. I read some of them a few days ago and wanted to shoot myself.

“Do you even reread them?” Would you believe me if I said, yes?

“Have you been working?” At the firework stand.

“No, like have you been writing?” Ha! I wish. I’ve been working at the firework stand everyday from 11a.m. to 9p.m.

“How long will this last?” I will be working at the fire work stand until July 5th.

“Everyday?” I’m hoping to get Monday off. If not the whole day then part of the day.

“What do you do there?” Sell fireworks. Also I read a lot.

“What do you read?” Look at my book reviews.

OH! You know what I should do? I should create a TBR (To Be Read) List. Once I organize my bookshelves I’ll do that. Perhaps that’s something I can do Monday. Ooh. Now I’m excited.

Speaking of books, I have a wonderful announcement coming soon next week. No, I haven’t written my book. I’ve hardly written anything. (That is so sad. I really need to work on that.) Whatever this announcement is, I’m excited about it, and it’s hard for me to contain.

*** I really can’t focus on this. It’s taken me an two to write this much.  I keep getting distracted by the T.V. One Tree Hill with Dad.

I’m still looking for stuff to motivate me in Chinese. If ya’all have any language learning tips, let me know! I’m always trying to find more. I’m reading Cheese in the Trap (Webtoon) and a few of those inspired me. (I’m actually really wondering why I never read it earlier.) Seriously though guys, help me. Motivation. Inspiration. I need it all.

么么哒!加油!(I say this as much to myself as I do toward you.)

 

I’m tired. Let’s get this over with.

The weekend was generally, fairly good. My week of no meat is over, however, now I am not eating sugar. I crave sweet things too much, so I’m trying to break that craving. Although, this is now forcing me to eat healthier– like veggies and fruit. (Oh, the horror.) I’m reading three books at the same time now. (I told you this was a serious problem. It’s not even a habit, just a horrible book and word addiction that I refuse to break.) I’m still reading The Red Queen  more than the other ones though. Hopefully, I’ll get that finished in the next few days.

Chinese is taking off wonderfully this week. I’m re-watching Les Interpretes (French. Literal Translation: The Interpreter.) It’s a Chinese drama, and I love it. It inspires me to study Mandarin a bit more. As unrealistic as it sounds, I think it would be really cool to be able to do simultaneous interpretation. It’s hard and takes a lot of work and practice, but I want to give it a shot. I also pulled down my flash cards from my closet, and re downloaded an app on my phone to help me with tones.

Last night I was talking to one of my favorite authors: J. D. Netto, author of The Whispers of the Fallen. I asked him what I should do when I can’t seem to write anything. Every time I site down to write, I look at the blank screen and quickly turn to Netflix. (I’m telling you, Supernatural calls my name.) He said,

“Find an idea you’r willing to pour yourself into for hours. Your passion for your work will be enough creative fuel.”

Dude, I’m so ready to find an idea I’m that passionate about. Now I just need to stop watching TV and actually start writing. (I don’t want to say good bye to Dean though! (Yes. I have claimed Dean. Fight Me.))

Umm… What else? I got new shoes. I ran a mile in them tonight. I don’t like them. I’m going to return them and get a pair of ASICS. I have high arches so I need shoes that support me well. I trust the ASICS brand so I’m going to buy me a pair that isn’t purple. (The current pair I have is purple, and I don’t like purple. I like pink.)

Yup. That’s my life.

OH!!! My Best Friend in Tulsa, got things worked out with the school, so now I can see her next semester. Yay! I was so worried she wouldn’t be coming back to school. I don’t know if I could do the semester without her. She’s kind of a staple in my life right now.

Speaking of Best Friend. My Best Friend in Michigan (Yes, I have two Best Friends.) and I will soon be working at a firework stand together. That makes me super happy. I’ve hardly seen her since I’ve been home, so it’ll be nice to spend a solid two weeks together.

Second to last thing: A lot of things are up in the air for the end of my summer. I don’t want to give too many details right now, but just be praying that God gives wisdom and guidance to all the parties involved in the decision making process.

Final topic: I will for sure be posting every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. If I post any other day it will simply be because I feel like it.

Fighting! 加油!Good luck!